tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-47558165052008690442024-03-05T10:12:27.288-07:00Blogger Thoughts 1955Sassy and Sixty Plus!BloggerThoughts1955http://www.blogger.com/profile/17434154160079201051noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4755816505200869044.post-14437908427419555972015-11-15T20:16:00.000-07:002015-11-15T22:40:37.765-07:00Autumn...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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weeks ago we sat on park benches, watching grandchildren play, laughing as dogs
walked their masters and the sun warmed our days. Rewinding those and other memories we sigh. Where have the months gone? Time has marched to quickly...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 107%;">No, it’s surly different than fifty years ago.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Our world is a changed place, foreign to
most everything we hold near and dear to our hearts. Don’t let go! Believe in
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 107%;">Autumn is the time of harvest… but not everyone has a
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">What happen to that little girl or boy that didn’t care about the weather because there was a hundred different things you wanted to do! Didn’t you play baseball in the rain, get muddy and when you came home mom was mad but she smiled and kissed you anyway. Hopscotch or jump rope didn't end with a few sprinkles and you kept playing until you hid under a tree or were called inside. How about riding your bike, playing in the park, walking the beach, the weather didn’t stop those activities... Have we really changed that much?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Dreams... The endless possibilities we believed in, wanted to reach for.. Many of us just quit trying. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">"Life has gotten in the way" "I have too many responsibilities" "There is no time for dreaming"</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Does not the splendor of a Christmas tree, the first winter snow, a thunder storm bring to surface the excitement we felt so long ago? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Have we forgotten the power of dreams... They can inspire us to go beyond the possible, push further than we imagined, to find a strength long forgotten.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">A wise friend once told me “If you always do what you have always done you will always get the same results.” To change those results you have to realize that you are NOT the same person you were before your world fell apart. You have learned what you DON’T want, so look for what you really do. Believe in yourself. Perhaps try the H.O.P.E. plan of action.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">Hope can be renewed if you just believe in your new self, wiser for the years you have traveled the road of life. With a new year approaching it is a great time to make a difference in YOUR life. Giving up is not an acceptable option!</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">We all know those lucky or some would say blessed couples that have been married twenty, thirty, forty even fifty years. Their lives have not always been easy, but there was a special magic that held them together. Alas, I am not one of them, but not for the lack of trying. The fact is I have been married 4 times for a total of 28 years. The magic was never there.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">Born with a heart the size of <st1:state style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">Texas, i</st1:state>t has been broken more times than I can count. Always listening with my heart, and ignoring the “wiser” council from my head, has left me settling for less than I truly wanted. Don’t get me wrong, there have been many happy years and lots of love shared. However the deeper, enduring, forever kind of love has always been elusive and the magic was not to be found.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span><div class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; background-color: white; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"> my mind. Where is the joy? How did I end up like this? Will I always be alone, unloved? Seemingly powerless to change my future I have drifted into a state of numbness. Going through the monitions of daily life but detached, as if watching a movie of someone else’s story. A fog of despair thickens and I withdrawal deeper into myself, lost like a child surrounded by strangers. With out love…. there is nothing. Magic… forever lost. These thoughts dance across the windows of my mind and leave me wanting.</span> </div>
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burn away the fog of despair? Slowly, ever so gradually, my heart warms, and I see once again the blank pages of my future. I realize they are yet mine to write. Stepping boldly forward I try once again. Gathering strength of will and a determination born of despair, my quest for the magic begins anew.</span></span><br /></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">Born into a family where mother read me stories before I understood letters and father challenged me with Reader’s Digest “Word Power” and crossword puzzles I was surrounded by words from the day of my birth. “It’s a girl!” the doctor declared as he tapped the ashes from his cigar. To some that declaration would have been good news to my family it was a miracle.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">It seems highly unfair that you have no control over the ultimate beginning of your life. Sometimes the situation is not ideal, such was my case. My parents were married less than three months before I appeared in the wee hours of a cold December’s morning. None the less, I was welcomed with smiles from all around, or so I was told. Both my parents had previous families with older children, all boys. Thus said, I was spoiled from day one being my aunts’ only niece and grandmother’s only granddaughter. (They were readers also.) In fact one grandmother had been a school teacher and the other a librarian. I was destined to be surrounded by the world of words. Words that protected the shy little girl when no one wanted to play, the lonely teenager with a hundred broken hearts and the wife and mother that needed to escape from reality, words were my defenders, the real hero’s of my life.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">I learned to make coffee in an old fashioned percolator. Carefully I measured the dark brown coffee into the little silver basket, placed it on the stem, then into pot already filled with just the right amount of water and added the lid. It was a little heavy so mother put it on the stove and turned on the burner. I sat, somewhat impatiently, on the old red step stool chair waiting and watching for the water to boil and for the perking to begin. The little explosions in the glass top lid were at first light brown and turned darker and darker with each small blast. The aroma filled our bright little kitchen and I knew it was done. Mother poured the rich brown liquid into a white glass cup. I lifted the lid of our cherry red tomato shaped sugar bowl and added three heaping spoons of the white granules into the cup and stirred. Mother put a saucer beneath then slowly and carefully I lifted them together. My mission, deliver the coffee to daddy without spilling. Rarely did I succeed as I maneuvered out of the kitchen, around our huge red brick fireplace, through the living room, down the hall and into daddy’s room.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">“Thank you!” he always said. “That smells delicious. Did you make it yourself?”</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">“Come and sit on the bed” he invited. “It is too hot to drink.”</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">“Can we tell a story while it cools down?” I would ask.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">“Okay.” Daddy says. “Whose turn is it to start, how about mommy?”</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">Mother smiled and a faraway look grew bright in her eyes. “Once upon a time…” </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">They were wonderful, unique stories, created on the spot, limited only by our imagination.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">Mother’s “chapter” was drawing to a close. The characters were in an awful state, destine to perish at any moment. </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">It was my turn. I bounced up and down for the hundredth time excited to have my chance. “Then into the woods came a….”</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">Thus it went, round after round until the coffee was gone, the characters victorious, and time for breakfast. It was a tradition we carried on for many years, until the lure of the outside world became irresistible. </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">I sit here at my computer, tears slide down my cheeks, the last story left untold.</span></div>
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<strong><span style="color: #666666; font-family: Verdana;">Another 24 hour period passing by, unstoppable like the waves of the sea…</span></strong><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">Seemingly helpless, I have watched not only days, but over 50 years slip by, often feeling defeated by the circumstances in which I find myself. </span><br />
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<span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">There have been husbands, children, and now grandchildren.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">Vital parts of my life cut out by irreversible choices. The fault is not important, but the hole left behind is real.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">As the years pass the wound grows wider.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">Can there be healing?</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">My door is always open, my heart seeking for a reunion long past due. But choice, personal decision, can not be forced by another so I wait, hoping, begging, bargaining with unspoken prayers.</span><br />
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<span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">Life moves onward like the passing of the seasons, the spring of youth, the summer of choice, the fall of regret, and the winter of lost hope.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">The cycle repeats year after year. </span><br />
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<span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">The successful find fame and fortune, the persistent make a name for themselves, the evil doers find space on the news.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">The lost, lonely, and forgotten are erased from our conscience like waste tossed in the basket of life.</span><br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2Fr5aoxOUbDhjkKc02cpFhYmA8cD5b-tzTsyQxKWOJis4BtcBz72SOBg4cUMov8XqjJXUA6okrvPzHBMwsZTr_TN5LVhdA6GOqGpEFNRm3FFq4LGsJM1Sz-4CikahsvRNO59p9kO5Ig/s1600/Old+House.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2Fr5aoxOUbDhjkKc02cpFhYmA8cD5b-tzTsyQxKWOJis4BtcBz72SOBg4cUMov8XqjJXUA6okrvPzHBMwsZTr_TN5LVhdA6GOqGpEFNRm3FFq4LGsJM1Sz-4CikahsvRNO59p9kO5Ig/s1600/Old+House.jpg" /></a><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">Where do I fit in?</span><br style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;" /><br style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;" /><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">I can wallow in self-pity, spew out blame, make excuses, find a scapegoat, but ultimately my life is what I choose to make it.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">Armed with the tools I am given or make the effort to acquire, I build my own house one board one nail at a time. I apply new paint, but eventually it chips away.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">Adding a new room makes it bigger but lonelier somehow.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">Filling it with objects has little appeal for they offer no comfort.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">My house lies empty. I rattle around inside, searching for meaning and purpose.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">Escape is desirable and attainable. But the longing to try is declining, the effort seems too much.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><br style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;" /><br style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;" /><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">What difference would it make?</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">I am not successful, persistent, or evil no one would even notice.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">Giving up is so much easier, until I find myself in an old folk’s home, feeble, weak and memory fading.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">No longer able to lift the hammer, to pound a single nail, my chance to remodel is lost forever.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><br style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;" /><br style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;" /><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">That picture horrifies me!</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">I race to find my misplaced tool box, surly there is work to be done.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">Disappointed I fine only a pen and a pad of paper. The pen is ordinary, holds no magical powers, but in my fingers thoughts flow and materialize line after line.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">“Who would read this?” I wonder aloud but it matters not.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">The walls of my house go un-noticed as my stack of pages grows taller.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">The visions that fill my head take me from this world to one of childhood memories.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">I laugh and lost joy is relived.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">The pictures, long packed away, rush through my mind like autumn leaves on a windy day. I can’t stop as I visit memory after memory.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">The years fly by.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">Gradually the images slow as does my writing.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">These are painful times.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">I don’t want to visit those houses, I want to burn them to the ground. Long pent-up anger surfaces and I cry out just one word “Why”.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">Why did it have to happen?</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">Why can’t I change the past? Why didn’t my dreams come true?</span><br style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;" /><br style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;" /><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">I stand, throwing the pen across the room.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">With one well aimed blow the pages scatter in a cluttered mess and drift to the floor.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">My heart pounding I move to the window and consider my thoughts.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">I realize, at this exact moment, I feel more alive than I have in years. I don’t want to let it go.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">I walk across the room, pick up the pen then carefully re-stack the pages of my life.</span><span style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 15px/21px Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; letter-spacing: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;"> </span></span>BloggerThoughts1955http://www.blogger.com/profile/17434154160079201051noreply@blogger.com0